Tomorrow has been a week since surgery.... and I feel... back to normal...... And when I mean normal I mean pre-band normal... I'm hungry... I eat to much and too often! Ughhhh I know its a mind thing but wow this is hard.... I should have taken this oportunity to use it as a learning experience but instead so far I have had some of my favorite foods I have gone without for the past year.... When I was soooo sick before the surgery I dropped down to 185 (which I knew some of it would come back due to not eating or drinking for 4 days straight). Now I'm back up to 197... AHHH :( Didn't think it would come that fast but wow.... I'm just having a down day and really missing my restriction :(
Now... That I got that off my chest and confessed to someone that I have not been eating like I should.... Now to try to get off on the right track tomorrow.... I think I am actually going to go right now to the kitchen and prepare my lunch for tomorrow.... I still have over a week till I get my fill back (and honestly I dont think he will put the full 4 cc back in it... I think I remember him mentioning only putting back half)..... Lets see if "confessing my sins" and realizing what I have done will help me get back on track.
And thanks for the get wells! It means a lot :) And it means a lot to have people who share the same struggle to talk to! Not a lot of people know that I have had this done so it feels good to share my troubles with someone.