I hate you food....

Tomorrow has been a week since surgery.... and I feel... back to normal...... And when I mean normal I mean pre-band normal... I'm hungry... I eat to much and too often! Ughhhh I know its a mind thing but wow this is hard.... I should have taken this oportunity to use it as a learning experience but instead so far I have had some of my favorite foods I have gone without for the past year.... When I was soooo sick before the surgery I dropped down to 185 (which I knew some of it would come back due to not eating or drinking for 4 days straight).  Now I'm back up to 197... AHHH :( Didn't think it would come that fast but wow.... I'm just having a down day and really missing my restriction :(

Now... That I got that off my chest and confessed to someone that I have not been eating like I should.... Now to try to get off on the right track tomorrow....  I think I am actually going to go right now to the kitchen and prepare my lunch for tomorrow.... I still have over a week till I get my fill back (and honestly I dont think he will put the full 4 cc back in it... I think I remember him mentioning only putting back half)..... Lets see if "confessing my sins" and realizing what I have done will help me get back on track.

And thanks for the get wells! It means a lot :) And it means a lot to have people who share the same struggle to talk to! Not a lot of people know that I have had this done so it feels good to share my troubles with someone.

Thanks :)

The gall bladder is now GONE!

Well I had surgery Tuesday! Everything went well and I am now gall bladder free... My Dr. said it was very infected and a good thing we got it out....Now for the bad news :( My band is completely empty of fluid and I am STARVING my weight has gone up about 5 pounds... (which i lost a lot being sick before this thing was taken out)  I have no restriction what so ever... and I wont have any fluid put back in till June 2... I was finally at my green zone which was great then all this happened! UGH! When i go back June 2nd he will only do a little fill then about two weeks later fill it back to where i was... I'm not use to feeling hungry so this is a weird feeling for me... I try to eat my small portions but lets just say they don't fill me up now! so my stomach is growling again just an hour or so later... On a bright note... he looked at my band while he was taking out my gall bladder and said things are looking great! It has not moved/shifted and it was still stitched good!  He told me not to worry about weight loss as of now just healing and getting better....But thats hard when i was finally off a plateau and my weight was moving 1-2 pounds a week... Just a little frustrating.  I will try to keep you up dated as I go along... Come on June 2nd!!! I'm ready to have restriction again!!!!

Dear Gallbladder....I hate you!

Well what a week!!!! I have been having a lot of trouble since last Wednesday keeping anything down! Starting Saturday I couldn't even keep liquids down!! I was scared my band had slipped or something!!! I called my Dr. and they said all Dr.s were in surgery so to go to the emergency room...... Well come to find out I have gallstones.... fun right???? So I stayed all day and had fluids put in me since I couldn't drink anything.... My Dr. squeezed me in yesterday and took out all of my fill to give things time to heal... Also I am scheduled for surgery on Tuesday to have this god awful gall bladder removed! I will be glad to see this thing go!!!!  The only good thing I can say is at least my weight has dropped a few pounds since all this and I am down to 185 which I haven't been since my freshman year of high school!!!! Now lets see if I can survive till Tuesday! (Today seems to be a good day, since the unfill I can drink fluids again and my Dr. has me on a diet of mashed potatoes... how fun!)